Worry Wart

My last post focused largely on my religious beliefs and my intense fear of death.  On the subject of death, I have definitely noticed that I fear it more now than I ever have before.  I fear losing my fiancé, because I don’t know what I would ever do without him.  And I fear leaving him … More Worry Wart

Choosing My Religion

Sometimes I feel like it would be much easier to be a secular individual.  If I didn’t believe in God, I wouldn’t have to worry about the little things, and I wouldn’t be so stressed out trying to do right by the Lord all the time.  Right would be whatever I deemed it to be, for better … More Choosing My Religion

The Path

If I think back to the way my life used to be, even two years ago, so much has changed so quickly.  My behavior then was extremely self-destructive.  I let anxiety and selfishness rule my life.  I had minimal self-esteem and thrived on attention from other people.  I made poor choices for the thrill of living … More The Path

Surrender

I’ve been thinking about my life and where I am right now.  I’ve mentioned in previous posts that I struggle with depression and anxiety.  One thing that really gets to me is this feeling like I am always behind on something.  The laundry needs to be folded, put away, purged etc.  The cupboards need to … More Surrender

New Year’s Eve

For as many years as I can remember, New Year’s Eve has meant sweet nothing to me.  I cannot fathom spending two or three times the amount a regular night out would cost me, and trudging through the cold while I feel it seeping into my bones and making my whole body ache, just to celebrate … More New Year’s Eve

After a While

This is a poem that a friend shared with me several years ago when I was going through some particularly hard times.  It’s quite beautiful. *************************************************************************** After a While by Veronica A. Shoffstall After a while, you learn the subtle difference Between holding a hand and chaining a soul, And you learn that love doesn’t … More After a While

Breathe

Another poem written in my teens, about 15 or 16 years ago. **************************************************************************** Inhale . . . Breathe in the colour and the beauty and the scent of you. Breathe in your smile and the light in your eyes, and the way you play with your hair. Breathe in your laugh, your tears, your grace, … More Breathe

Once Upon a Time

This is a poem that I believe I wrote when I was in high school.  So that would have been about 15 or 16 years ago. ************************************************************************ Once upon a time, I danced happily along a wide road in the bright morning sunlight.  And the birds sang and flitted above me in the sky with … More Once Upon a Time